A Ship Among the Stars
Sometimes I feel as though I am going crazy. I have times where I just can't be home any longer. My thoughts overwhelm me and nothing, not a single thing, can change the course of my unrest unless I leave my house. Sometimes this leads to a 2am run or a nine-mile walk, other times I find myself sitting on the edge of a ten story parking garage, and yet occasionally my madness drives me to travel a great distance for the sake of the drive.
Last night it was so bad I fled my house at 11:30pm. I didn't have a destination in mind, I just knew I had to get out of my head and driving would take me away from there. I found myself at the bottom of Saddle Mountain in the fog, 73.5 miles away from my house. I hiked to the top, and something beautiful happened. My hike took me above the cloud layer, and in the dark of night I emerged with the immaculate milky way painted in the sky. Out of the 20+ times I've done this hike in the night, I've never been above the clouds and seen the milky way this bright. It was truly a sight to behold. This time I also noticed that the railing, when seen from the other side, looks like a ship! I shot photos until the sun started to rise, at which point I raced back down the mountain, eager to be on the road before the sun came up. Driving was a struggle, as I hadn't had sleep since 5:30 the previous morning, so I texted my parents and crashed on their couch. I could have stopped home for a shower before my shift started at 2pm, but I was so eager to stay away I showered at my parents and drove straight to the hotel.
I'm not sure what goes on in my head sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I'm not depressed, but I think I just go crazy when I spend too much time thinking about my life. My boss put it beautifully when she said "You don't like to be home with your own thoughts." I think it's safe to say that is exactly right.